The Perfectionist

lizelle17:

Patience

It didn’t come all of a sudden, the pain I felt were distant and inconsistent. I suppose it made it worse because I couldn’t predict it. At times when I was hurt, it was mostly because I tried to show my patience. What I tried to conceal in the name of patience, eventually got the best of me.

But patience is a double ended sword, it hurts to grow patience, it also hurts to test patience. It seems you’ve had the habit of testing mine ever since you learnt how much I had. I mean no harm, I understand you’re growing and a part of you will always make mistakes and that’s okay. I don’t mean no harm, I held out my arm for you to cut and you’ve almost left me broken.

(via perrfectly)

I think

My heart shattered

When I saw you dancing with him.

Not because I was jealous,

Partly yes,

but mostly because I knew

You were never mine.

That in certain circumstances,

You’d forget about me

And lose track of time.

I was never a violent man,

Yet somehow, you’ve made me

Punch an innocent man

Simply because he held you in his arms.

I don’t mean to prey,

I suppose I’m an old fashioned man.

I suppose there’s things that are meant for me

Yet you seem to share it with everyone else.

I don’t blame you,

it’s hard not to touch you when you look at me like that,

Why should I expect less of men.

I do blame you,

For you couldn’t understand what it’s like to be on the outside.

I understand,

Truly.

You aren’t the type of girl to see clearly,

Past 12.

I understand,

truly,

there no controlling yourself.

I do wish you’d let me know sooner,

So I could’ve prepared

And I would have to be a goner.

it hurts you know,

Because I understand all of you.

it hurts because I knew this was you.

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